Amen!

From thousands of years a man has been worshiping God in some of the other form. The world-wide belief is that 'He' knows everything and 'He' is responsible to run the World. 'He' is pure, holy and possess all the sanctity, which men don't. On the other hand, we think the human world is full of sins, ugliness and abuse. In order to preserve the sanctity, people prefer serving 'Him'. But the path is not so simple.

Former nun Sister Jesme' autobiography 'Amen' published in English recently opens 'the path' to the God's world which is full of sexual abuse, sex scandals, nun suicides, murders and corruption in Educational institutes.

Sr Jesme entres one of the Catholic church in Kerala during her pre-degree course as she gets revelation from Jesus Christ. She decides to become a nun and submits herself to the Christ with the hope of serving him, her entire life.

But as I told you its not so simple. She starts getting acquainted with the darker side of the Church organisation. She gets first experience of sexual abuse after realising girls in her batch were unsettled about going to the confession chamber. The complaint was that the priest there asks each girl if he could kiss them. When she opposes him, he tells her lines from the Bible on divine kisses.

In an other incident, a senior nun forces her to have sex and Sr Jesme has no option and accepts it. In one more incident where a priest asks her to strip. On denial over his demand he asks angrily if she had seen a man. When she says no, he strips himself, ejaculates and forces her to strip.
This is not enough she also alleges the educational institutes for being corrupt and discriminating poor and rich students. The discrimination among staff of the Church is also huge. The caste system very well exists in the Church.

The Church also tries to curtail Sr Jesme's honest efforts to bring transparency in the work. The Church wants to send her for psychiatric treatment and she has to leave the institution forever.
The autobiography is really shacking. It doubts the belief in religion or God. I wonder after so much of hardship and abuse that how can Sr Jesme still has faith in God and the institution. She says the belief only gave her power to deal the situation. Amen!